Sep. 5th, 2010 07:53 pm
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Anais Nin: "The day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
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"Eventually, I realized that being recognizable as a girl was not the same thing as recognizing myself. In daydreams, I had never pictured myself with a face. It took photographs and mirrors to remind myself of what I looked like, because I honestly couldn’t call up a mental image of myself."

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"The transsexual can react to this situation one of two ways: They can either try to live up to public expectations about maleness and femaleness in an attempt to fit in and avoid stigmatization or they can disregard public expectations and simply be themselves. However, if they choose the latter, the public will still judge them based on whether they appear female or male and, of course, others may accuse them of 'passing' even though they have not actively done anything."

[And other people whose opinions I value have said I should bring up the stuff our GSA's pres. said with the faculty advisor but I have no idea where to start with that.]

"I am thinking about what I would have given for one guy voice in the years I searched for someone, anyone, like me at all, searched for service and found pink fleece suits and Lee Press On Nails and listening to my counselors scream at me about their lesbian oppression and...hearing domestic violence professionals lecture on how men don't need help because 95 percent of violence is caused by men, over and over again, men's high-pitched laughs after they tell me they've been raped again, rooms full of women in wigs talking about electrolysis, and interventions, which means I have to leave now or someone will call the Nazis, because my voice is a guy voice and there are no guy voices, not in a safe space, no big voices, no rude shouting laughing deep and open from the belly voices, no men's voices in safe spaces at all. (Aaron Link Raz, What Becomes You)"

"People hurt us because of who the hell they think we are. I almost drowned in the ocean of my sense of myself and other people's imaginations of me..."

"Throughout this time, Aaron was as he had always been, a gendered male self. He certainly listened to me as I struggled. Only now I noticed he was beginning to stand up straight. People smiled at him on our way to the gym. People rarely smiled at Sarah, who often scowled. I'd thought she was intellectual, not miserable."
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‎"Not only do these 'transexual-as-assimilationist' accusations blatantly dismiss transsexual perspectives, but they are also unabashedly cissexist in other ways. They erase the existence of the many transsexuals who are unrelenting feminist and queer activists,and hold those transsexuals who do identify as heterosexual feminine women and masculine men more accountable for gender-based oppression than the overwhelming majority of cissexual people who identify the same way."

[also? seriously one of your interests is gender and you've never heard the term cis* before? wth?]

‎"Because these scholars have not had to live with the
reality of gender dissonance, they are afforded the luxury of intellectualizing
away subconscious sex, thus allowing them to project their own interests or
biases onto trans people."

"However many of these same cissexuals also assume that they are infallible in their ability to assign genders to other people, they can develop an overactive sense of cissexual gender entitlement. This goes beyond a sense of self-ownership regarding their own gender, and broaches territory in which they consider themselves to be the ultimate arbiters of which people are allowed to call themselves man/woman."

‎"The tactic of trans-facsimilation is evident in the regularity with which cissexuals use words such as 'emulate,' 'imitate,' 'mimic,' and 'impersonate' when describing transsexual gender identities and expression."
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A few more observations/quotes:

  • the notion of a subconscious sex (the gender we subconsciously feel ourselves to be) makes a lot of sense.

  • "All of the words available in the English language completely fail to accurately capture or convey my personal understanding of these events. For example, if I were to say I 'saw' myself as female, or 'knew' myself to be a girl, I would be denying the fact that I was consciously aware of my physical maleness at all times. And saying I 'wished' or 'wanted' to be a girl erases how much being female made sense to me, how it felt right on the deepest most profound level of my being. I could say I 'felt' like a girl, but that would give the false impression that I knew how other girls (and other boys) felt. And if I were to say that I was "supposed to be" a girl or that I "should have been born" female, it would imply that I had some sort of cosmic insight into the grand scheme of the universe, which I most certainly did not."

  • "my first experiences masturbating as a teen involved me spreading my legs, placing my hand on my crotch, and rocking my hand back and forth the way many girls instinctively do it."
    I freaked a little when I read this sentence [freaked here means I ran to the bathroom and imitated how I masturbate- legs fairly closed, with a thrusting motion and more of a up/down rubbing]. This probably says a lot about me, yes?

  • Julia Serano and I have similiar thoughts regarding our gender-though I am admittedly on the "opposite" side

  • "For me the tension I felt between these two disparate understandings of myself was wholly jarring." [it's wonderful to have *words* to go with these feelings]
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